You know who I am, you’ve called me your friend, Wishes of misery and heartache I send, I want only to see that you’re brought to your knees, I’m the devil inside you, I am your disease.
I’ll invade all your thoughts, I’ll take hostage of your soul, I’ll become your new master, in total control. I’ll maim your emotions, I’ll run the whole game, Till your entire existence is crippled with shame.
When you call me I come, sometimes in disguise, Quite often I’ll take you by total surprise. But take you I will, and just as you’ve feared I’ll want only to hurt you, with no mercy spared.
If you have your own family, I’ll see it’s destroyed, I’ll steal every pleasure in life you’ve enjoyed. I’ll not only hurt you, I’ll kill if I please, I’m your worse living nightmare.
I am your disease.
I bring self destruction, but still you can’t tell, I’ll sweep you through heaven, then drop you in hell, I’ll chase you forever wherever you go, And then when I catch you, you won’t even know.
I’ll sometimes lay silent, just waiting to strike, What’s yours becomes mine, coz I take what I like, I’ll take all you own and I won’t care who sees, I’m your constant companion…. I am your disease.
If you have any honour, I’ll strip it away, You’ll lose all your hope and forget how to pray, I’ll leave you in darkness, while blindly you stare, I’ll reduce you to nothing and won’t even care.
So don’t take for granted my powers sublime, I’ll bend and I’ll break you, time after time. I’ll crumble your world with the greatest of ease, I’m that madman inside you….
I am your disease.
But today I’m real angry…. you want to know why? I let this whole room of addicts slip by, How did I lose you? Where did I go wrong? One minute I had you, then next you were gone.
You just can’t dismiss all the good times we’ve shared, When you were alone… wasn’t it I who appeared? When you sold those possessions you knew you would need, Wasn’t I the first one who stepped in and agreed?
Now look at you bastards, you’re thinking clear, You escaped with your lives when you found your way here. Only fools think they’re winners when admitting defeat, It’s what you must say when you’re claiming that seat.
So go ahead and surrender, if that’s what you choose, But I’m not giving up cos I can’t stand to lose. So go to your meetings and pray hand in hand, for God to come save you…. leaving me to be damned.
Well be damned all your meetings each night of the week, Be damned Higher Powers, however unique, Be damned all your sayings, be damned your cliches, Be damned every addict who back to me strays.
For I know it will happen, I’ve seen it before, Those who love misery will crawl back for more. So take comfort in knowing, I’m waiting right here, But next time around, you’d better beware.
I am your disease.
You think that you’re stronger or smarter this time, There isn’t a mountain or hill you can’t climb. Well if that’s what you’re thinking you ain’t learned a thing, I’ll still knock you silly if you step back in my ring.
But you say you’ve surrendered so what can I do. It’s so sad in a way, I had big plans for you. Creating your nightmare for me was a dream, I’m sure gonna miss you, we made quite a team.
So please don’t forget me, I won’t forget you, I’ll stand by your side watching all that you do, I’m ready and waiting, so call if you please, I won’t let you forget me…
I am your disease.
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